Okay, so lets try this.
This blog is going to be just for my feelings, mainly to get them out there. I could probably use a notebook or something similar, but I'm not good at keeping track of things like that.
So I've been dating this wonderful girl, I won't mention her name on here for the sake of privacy. Things have been going great for a good while now, and I love her. This relationship is far better than the first relationship I had.
I think I'm breaking this relationship. I'm honestly terrified of this. This girl has made my days that much easier to go through, and I have a blast hanging out with her friends. She has some great friends, I enjoy hanging out with them. Last time I was at her apartment we all played a game I hadn't played before, Apples to Apples, and while not many of them understood my sense of humor, it was a lot of fun.
Lately I've been noticing that there hasn't been a lot to our conversations, and I can't help but think that's due to me being stupid with words. I legitimately care about this girl greatly, and everything she does (even if I don't typically find them interesting) suddenly become just that, interesting. The problem, however, is that I can't think of things to have a good conversation with over the phone. I'm not sure why I can't, but I just .. it doesn't happen. I'm at a loss for words as to what is exactly wrong and why it is the way it is, but I really need to fix this if I'm to keep this girl from breaking up with me. I would be very, very upset.
What the hell is wrong with me? Why does everything I get involved in fuck up? I'm supposed to have the good luck in my family, but I lack .. everything.
What the hell.
